I waited around to see my ex-first love.

Interesting lyrics. A man/Me/Then Jim by Rilo Kiley. The lyrics actually say 'Her' and 'She'.. I changed them for the situation at hand. Let's look at this, shall we?

I waited around to see my ex first love
And I barely recognized him,
but I knew exactly what he was thinking of.
We sat quietly in the corner whispering close about loss.
And I remembered why I loved him,
and I asked him why I drove him off.

Needless to say, I met with Paul again today. I notice that I really only blog after something happens with him. I've thought about it, and I think that this is because after I do, I'm filled with so many different emotions, so many different things going on in my head and I know that none of my friends want to listen to me go on about this boy who broke my heart so long ago.

We walked around the mall, got some coffee, and he complained about his girlfriend. Like he usually does. I mean.. I like hearing him talk crap about her haha... But then, he's still talking about her.

I don't know. It's stupid. He wants to see me again next week. Whyyy do I do this to myself? He's so bad, but he's so gorgeous, and I just always remember all the good times we had, how he used to make me feel.. It's not until he leaves that I pull up all the things I hate about him. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

On another note, I did this facebook thing where you write 25 things about yourself, then tag 25 of your friends and then they have to do it too... I thought my list was pretty good, so I'm gonna post it here.

1. I played the cello for almost 10 years and then I fell out of love with it. It's been three years, and I miss it terribly.

2. I cry at the silliest things. Zack and Kelly broke up on Saved By The Bell this morning. I teared.

3. My world has been ROCKED by suicide; this is why you will never hear me joke, or laugh when someone ELSE jokes "Oh I could just kill myself." I do not think that it's at all funny.

4. I fell in love with a boy once. He broke my heart and I haven't been the same since. I'm okay, just not the same.

5. I believe in God, and I go to church occasionally. But God has never 'called' to me, and I honestly don't even know what people mean when they say that.

6. I can get very jealous. You can't always tell I'm jealous, I think I hide it well.

7. I HATE when people don't use their blinkers... But in all actuality, I don't even use mine all that much.

8. I would rather be late for class than to show up without having showered or but my make-up on. I'm not high maintainence, I just like being clean and pretty.

9. That being said; I am never early, sometimes on time, and usually late. If you want me somewhere by 7, you should tell me to be there by 6:30.

10. I kiss my hand and smack the ceiling when I go through a yellow light. Every time.

11. I feel music. I mean really feel it. I feel it in my bones and in my muscles. I feel it in my heart and in my soul. It seriously resonates within me in a way that lets me know that music is what I'm supposed to do with the rest of my life. It's the only thing in this world that I'm sure of.

12. I want to own my own record label. I have friends that have way too much talent for their own good, and that I want to share with the world. They need to be known. (Sam's The Hero, Madison, Elana, these people are you.)

13. My worst enemy growing up was my sister. She is also my best friend of all time.

14. I honestly, truly believe that my nephew, Ollie Kyle Faithful, is the cutest, sweetest baby in the entire world, and that I'm not just biased.

15. I am a Libra, and with that comes my innate fear of being alone.

16. I have seven best friends. Seven. Whoever said that you could only have one best friend simply did not know the people that I know. Amanda, Angelica, Laura, Callah, Elana, Geoffrey and Madison. My seven best friends.

17. 'Kucharski' means 'Chef' in Polish. True to my name, I love to cook. I make an incredible breakfast sandwich, a mean chicken parmesan, and ridiculous ginger snaps. I can't make pancakes to save my life.

18. I'm really proud of my Polish ancestry, and I want my cousin Nick and his wife Crystal to have a little baby boy... Nick is the last one who can pass on the Kucharski name!!!

19. I have moved 11 times. Only three of these times were ordered by the Navy. The rest? My parents were bored. 6 of these moves were within 5 miles of each other. One time we moved up the street a few houses.

20. I'm taking Spanish 2 at TCC. This is my 5th year of Spanish. I have an A.

21. I want to get married someday, but am not one of those girls who has any desire to do it right now. I am more than okay with being 30 before it happens. I don't want to be married until I'm completely finished with all my college, and then I don't want kids until a few years after I'm married. I plan on having my husband all to myself for a while. Oh, and I only want to marry once.

22. I was initiated into the Upsilon class of the Gamma Sigma chapter of Phi Sigma Sigma in the fall of 2006. I miss my sisters when they're not around. Which is all the time.

23. My favorite song in the whole world is Walking in Memphis, by Marc Cohn.

24. A few months back I finally upgraded from my twin mattress… (Yes, I had a twin up until age 20…) and bought a queen sized King’s Down Pillowtop… It is THE most comfortable bed that anyone has ever slept on in life… I just think that you should be jealous, that’s all.

25. It took me four days to write this list, and even longer to decide who I was going to tag in it. And I just wasted a whole number on this, but I had run out of facts, so it’s okay haha.

Until next time...

ktg.